Today I went back to my dentist for more crown work, on teeth #31 and #32, which are the back two bottom right ones in a mouth without wisdom teeth. This dentist is one Rodney selected for us when we moved back here, I think primarily due to the fancy market-saturating campaign in the community (I know, dental marketing, whatever). You can have locally roasted coffee while you wait, a warmed flax-seed pillow for under your neck, a blanket for your feet, lip balm in your choice of scents, and even a DVD to soothe and distract you. And, the bill to match.
The DVD choices include Spongebob Squarepants, plus nine live concerts by various music acts, the dentist’s personal favorite being Michael Buble. Today the tech who assisted him asked me if I wanted to watch one, and I said sure. She said she really loves the Celine Dion one, it’s very relaxing for her. That only made me gag a little bit, and so I went back to my old stand-by, Phil Collins “Seriously Live in Berlin.” Based on the backup singers’ clothing, I am guessing it was filmed sometime in the late 1980s. All the hits are there, and it’s a crowd of billions. Phil even busts out a bit of basic German on the crowd, often shouting “wunderbar!”
Although it took more than 15 injections to get my mouth numb enough to withstand the agony (apparently the lower jaw requires the most medication), after a while the dentist and the tech got going with the horrible drilling-out of those two teeth, and I tried to enjoy Phil.
A mind gets to wandering after hearing the chorus of “One More Night” a few too many times, and soon I found myself thinking about the gigantic crowd that was in attendance. It was a sea of people. I’ve been to a very few concerts like that, the first Lollapalooza, three nights of Grateful Dead (hey I was 17, and they had Bruce Hornsby on keyboards!)… so I guess I never really thought much about how it must feel to be THE PERSON all those fans are there screaming and writhing over.
Then I started thinking about how some of the boys I dated in high school and college had dreams of becoming rock stars. The indie rock kind of rock stars, but rock stars just the same. I doubt many of them would have said that the reason for it was a desire for a sea of people traveling miles, wearing their face on shirts, buying their stuff as soon as it hit the store, screaming, and writhing…never quite getting enough. Now, as a grown up far removed from the angsty indie rock boys of 15-odd years ago, I think that was it, the big true reason for wanting to be a rock star.
Watching Phil up there through my tinted protective glasses as the drill buzzed away, I guess I tidied up another little corner of my formative years. I accepted the fact that those boys wanted all the glory even though they couldn’t admit it at the time. What else could it be? The music certainly wasn’t that awesome.